POSTED ON Sunday, 26 February 2012 AT Sunday, February 26, 2012 \\
“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”
Some days, I think about "us" & i feel warm & fuzzy.
Some days, I think about "us" & there's this feeling that feels like I got punched in the stomach.
I felt so much hurt & betrayal. I couldn't believe that someone that I'd trusted with all my heart could cause me so much pain. We were young, I felt too much. Much more than you did, I'm sure. But I'm better now. So much better without you. Without you, I've learnt to love again. I'm really proud of myself for moving on even if it took way too long. *pats back*
But Dear F,
Thank you for being my first love!
On another note, PLEASE do not stay in a relationship with someone if they've hurt you far too many times. Chances are, they'll do it again. I know how it feels. You gift them with second chances that they can never appreciate. Plainly just promises tainted with honey-coated words.
"I'm sorry."
"I never meant to hurt you."
"I don't know what I was thinking."
"I was not myself."
"I'll be better."
"Nobody understands me like you do."
"I promise."
Heard them all time & again? It's hard to let go. It really is. When you've spent so much time with a certain someone for so long, you can't imagine being without them. But, stop. Stop thinking about how sad/pathetic the other party is feeling without you. Are you thinking about yourself? Are you happy? Sure. There's the fleeting moments of happiness, but what about the amount of hurt the other party has caused? I bet my bottom dollar the amount of hurt outweighs the amount of happiness.
When you get out of the rut, someone better will fall into place. Don't shortchange yourself, thinking that that's the best you can do. Believe you're worth it. Someday you'll love again.